Growing up on the streets of Midgar, one learns how to compartmentalize everything.  It's necessary for survival.  When, for instance, someone is trying to relieve an unsuspecting person of their wallet they couldn't let their mind wander lest they slip up and make a mistake, quite possibly getting themselves caught in the process.  Or worse.  No, I'm not going to elaborate on that score.  Anywho, you had to learn <i>not</i> to think about certain things, or feel certain things, if you could even feel at all.  Things had to remain hidden.  Shut off and locked away in the furthest reaches of your mind.

But lately... lately I've been having trouble doing that.  Ever since Cloud and I returned home over the winter break.  He's always on my mind.  Right there out in front, wondering what he's doing, how he's feeling, what's he doing for lunch. Shit like that.  He's freakin' taking over my brain.  I can't pay attention in class.  I find myself drifting off and wondering when I'll get to see him next.  Before his next class?  At dinner?  With our dorm situation a mess, we're not sharing a room right now and it's driving me up the fucking wall.  It feels like this piece of me is missing. I can barely sleep at night without the comforting sound of his breathing.  I totally missed a meeting I was supposed to attend because I was looking for Cloud to spend at least a little time with him.  *sigh*

Is this normal?  Or am I seriously losing my mind here?

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A friend of mine sent me this picture and I thought I would share it with everyone since everyone in this school seems to have heard about it already (if they didn't actually witness it that is): http://i178.photobucket.com/albums/w263/geishaschu/cloud_x_reno_penned_north-south2.jpg

Sexy no?  Yeah, that's me and my 'brother' kissing in the middle of the hallway.  I hope all you yaoi fangirls and fanboys out there enjoy it as much as I did.  *snickers*

Hey, dude, you and I need to get together sometime and hang out.  Been a long time.  I'll even show you what I got Cloud for his b-day.  He's gonna freakin' kill me, but it'll be worth it.  *grins* 

I can't believe I'm in this little diner this late at night doing a fucking review for my bro.  The food's all right, it's diner food for crying out loud, how can you really go wrong with such simple and traditional fare?  However... when you've spent a good portion of your life on the streets, even that tastes like a freakin' feast.  BUUUUUUUUUUUUUT, I promised Cloud I would do this for him and he owes me for it.  Big time.  Oh my gods, is he going to owe me.  And I'm going to watch you squirm, aniki, wondering what in the hell you're going to have to do for me in return.  *evil laugh*